I'm doing the Seeking Him study and we're on Chapter Three now about Honesty.
Our memory verse is Proverbs 28:13 (let's see if I can remember it!) He who conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will find compassion.
If we want true revival in our hearts, we must start with a humble acknowledgement that we are sinners and God is holy and good.
One of the most helpful parts of this study is the self-evaluations on each Day 5 lesson of each Chapter. This week's lesson asked such questions as: Do I volunteer for service and good works to glorify God or to impress others?
Do I see my sin as God sees it, or do I tend to think of it in terms of "weaknesses" or "personality quirks"?
Do I often leave others with the impression that I am more spiritually mature and committed than is actually true?
Am I guilty of speaking graciously to others while harboring hatred or bitterness in my heart towards them?
So as I'm reading through this list, asking the Lord to reveal sin in my life, he is faithful to do so, and he illuminated something for me that was quite shocking:
I slander my firstborn son.
When we struggle, I seem to be the first one to complain to whoever will listen. I do this from a sense of "see how I struggle and how humble I am about it to share it with you." But in reality, I'm just wanting to grumble. It's not helping anyone to hear me whine about how difficult he is, and as he gets older, he's going to wind up hearing me some time or another. It's also going to affect how others relate to him, giving him an unfair disadvantage to already have that "difficult" label.
So my prayer now is that I will take my troubles directly to God, then to my husband, then to a trusted friend who I know will pray for me and not allow me to slander him.